If we don’t seek an answer, we will never learn. As much as it is important to know that all good things comes to those who wait; if we never kick-start the process, then how can we expect anything to change?

It’s nearly New Year, so this epiphany has come just in time for a personal resolution. If I want change, it carries a risk. The risks that I have weighed up, juggled and put back in the metaphorical box not to be unleashed again. But the box beat in my head, like the Jumanji drum, and I re-opened it. This cycle keeps whirring until a decision is finally made. Will you, or won’t you do it?

• If I don’t do it: Nothing changes. No risk, no danger. But I feel no sense of relief and everything that happens around me is a result of me being stationary, physically and emotionally.
• If I do it: The whole dynamic changes. You start over with a fresh outlook and can move forward. It could lead to something great. Or, what you already have, could be well and truly ballsed up. You can’t take back what you’ve done and the change is irreversible.

So, you can see the dilemma here. Someone who overthinks stuff and analyses everything to the max is going to have a field day with this “What if?” situation.

Past experience is the only guide, and it’s a mixed bag of outcomes.

All I know is the fear. The battle between the ways I want to do it vs. the way it’ll have to be done…not the same thing.

However, as it’s a New Year’s resolution, the beating drum box is staying put for now. This is when patience has to come in. Patience isn’t a procrastination tactic. It is merely there to make sure we keep a hold of ourselves and do things rationally.

Have confidence in who you are and what you want. It’s achievable, as long as you believe you can do it. If it doesn’t work out, then you tried. Some things aren’t meant to be. But, then at least you can move forward, whatever the outcome.

2017, prepare for some changes.